DOODLES

I had the feeling the world was disintegrating around me
Everything became ugly, distorted, as if someone did it on purpose…
…to try to make me regret it less…
and now…
I can touch the table
Krzysztof Kieślowski, Decalogue II, 1988.

Excerpt from the closing scene (the so-called Resurrection Scene).

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I AM REBORN IN THE TIME RETOLD IN THIS NOTEBOOK.

Susan Sontag, Reborn. Journals & Notebooks 1947–1963, ed. David Rieff (New York: Farrar, Strauss, Giroux, 2008), 18. Original emphasis.

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At the Rijksmuseum in Amsterdam, there is a series of pictures painted by the so-called Master of Alkmaar. These are scenes of everyday life, people gathered together for reasons which change from picture to picture; in each group, there is one figure, always the same: lost in the crowd, which is represented as though unaware of being observed, only this person, each time, gazes at the painter (and hence at me) right in the eyes. This figure is Christ.

Roland Barthes, “Right in the Eyes [1977],” in The Responsibility of Forms. Critical Essays on Music, Art, and Representation, trans. Richard Howard (Berkeley: University of California Press, 1991), 240.

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And under the oppression of the silent fog
The tolling bell
Measures time not our time, rung by the unhurried
Ground swell, a time
Older than the time of chronometers, older
Than time counted by anxious worried women
Lying awake, calculating the future,
Trying to unweave, unwind, unravel
And piece together the past and the future,
Between midnight and dawn, when the past is all deception,
The future futureless, before the morning watch
When time stops and time is never ending;
And the ground swell, that is and was from the beginning,
Clangs
The bell.

T.S. Eliot, “The Dry Salvages,” I:35–48, in Four Quartets [1943], ed. Herman Servotte (Kapellen: Pelckmans and Baarn: Ambo, [1983] 1996), 76.

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“I would do so knowing that what has been interrupted cannot be resumed, that the gap would remain there always, hidden perhaps but constant, and knowing that a before and an after can never be knit together.”

Javier Marías, Your Face Tomorrow. Volume Three. Poison, Shadow and Farewell [2007], trans. Margaret Jull Costa [2009] (New York: New Direction Books, 2011), 209.

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Some explanatory scenarios:

1. Having an illiterate father encourages the habit of reading.

2. An illiterate father encourages the habit of reading.

3. A literate mother encourages the habit of reading, in light of the limits reached by the illiterate father.

4. A blacksmith works with words. Words and phrases fly from the anvil as the hammer hits the soft red steel: “hammer and tongs,” “strike while the iron is hot,” “mind-forged manacles.”

Allan Sekula, “Polonia and Other Fables 2007–2009,” in Polonia and Other Fables (Chicago and Warsaw: The Renaissance Society at the University of Chicago and Zachęta National Gallery of Art, 2009), 60.

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Fifth Deadly Sin: ENVY or VAINGLORY (acedia, id est anxietas seu taedium cordis, et conodoxia, id est jactancia seu vana Gloria). This is Mr Everybody, the man in the street, the perfect citizen of a democracy, the man who wears mass-produced clothes, eats mass-produced food, kisses by the clock and owns a little 5 h.p. car with a registered licence-plate. He is undistinguished and indistinguishable in every way. He votes. It was Gogol who identified him as the latest personification of the Devil, who tries to pass himself off as your fellow creature, your brother. He is the cuckold of the twentieth century! He is universal, he says. And that is the danger.
Watch out, Blaise, there is a lot of talk of making a United States of Europe and Soviet of the East, and they will not want any more free citizens of the world, like you.

Blaise Cendrars, Planus [1948], ed. and trans. Nina Rootes (London: Peter Owen, 1972), 116. Original emphasis.

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Sol: Now, what news on the Rialto?

Sal: Why yet it lives there uncheck’d, that Antonio hath a ship of rich lading wrack’d on the narrow seas; the Goodwins I think they call the place, a very dangerous flat, and fatal, where the carcases of many a tall ship lie buried, as they say,—if my gossip Report be an honest woman of her word.

William Shakespeare, Act III, Scene 1 (“Venice. A Street”), in The Merchant of Venice [1605], ed. John R. Brown (London: Methuen & Co. LTD and Cambridge, MA: Harvard University Press, 1961), 70.

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On 5 April [1982], the British Task Force left Portsmouth, cheered and waved off by a pugnacious and surprisingly bloodthirsty crowd, clamouring for a fight to restore their cheapened honour, a bit of a comedown in comparison with past epic deeds and struggles. After all, in the last long century and a half, this was a nation that had stood up against Napoleon, the Tsar, the Kaiser and Hitler, among others — far too many others.

Javier Marías, Berta Isla [2017], trans. Margaret Jull Costa (London: Hamish Hamilton, 2018), 296.

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Let us make room. Let us fill the holes. Or let us spread and open our arms to let the newcomers into our circle. No matter what we do, it will be a Dance of Death.

I have been living for too long already.
Yet I still want to experience the arrival of the contemporary, of the new middle ages, and not miss the atomic era. I even held on to my seat on the first train leaving for the moon!...

Blaise Cendrars, Bourlinguer [1948] (Paris: Folio, 2016), 337–338. My translation. My emphasis.

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Except for working for the government …, I don’t think I ever worked anywhere where I was caught in a trap. I know someone who worked in a Navy office, this huge office with little compartments made with filing cabinets. And she shuffled papers all day long, and she thought it was useless, and not much good to anybody, and she put some papers in the wrong file once, and a sailor’s records ended up in the office for dead people. He was still alive, and I used to worry about it. Kept asking, “Did you ever tell anybody you did it? Did you ever try to get them back?” She said, “No, I didn’t want to.” And I’ve often thought about that poor sailor and wondered where he is now? If he was officially dead as far as the records were concerned, did he ever get to come back, get a resurrection? But she felt that she’d cause more damage by admitting that she had accidentally killed someone off, than by just letting it go. She said, “I’m going to get out and I’ll never find out.”

Allan Sekula, Aerospace Folktales [1973], in Photography Against the Grain. Essays and Photo Works 1973–1983(Halifax: The Press of the Nova Scotia College of Art and Design, 1984), 158.

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The architects of the European project have fooled themselves into believing that avoiding mentioning the “D” word is a surefire way to prevent it from happening. For them, European integration was like a speed train — never stop and never look back. Making the European Union’s disintegration unthinkable was the preferred strategy over making integration irreversible.

Ivan Krastev, After Europe (Philadelphia: University of Pennsylvania Press, 2017), 3.

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“As long as we occupy Calais, we can console ourselves for the loss of Antwerp.”

Saying allegedly expressed by Lord A.J. Balfour to Sir Winston Churchill, then first Lord of the Admiralty, after the Fall of Antwerp on October 9, 1914.

As cited in Jean Lulvès, Calais sous la domination anglaise 1347–1558 (Bern: Ferd. Wyss, 1918), opening statement. http://gallica.bnf.fr/ark:/12148/bpt6k56126361/f6.image. Accessed April 2, 2021. My translation.

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The trip under the Channel was a bit of an anti-climax. We descended into blackness for half an hour and could see nothing. I had hoped for something to happen, but my ears did not even pop.

Eve Darian-Smith, Bridging Divides. The Channel Tunnel and English Legal Identity in the New Europe (Berkeley: University of California Press, 1999), xi.

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and I know your room has no walls
but it really won’t take long anymore
we regain strength in Calais
we regain strength in Calais
and tomorrow we go together to the beach
dreaming of the far side across
waiting just a little more in Calais
waiting just a little more in Calais
we will get there, though it may be awfully slow
though the hours sometimes seem like days here
the nights are long in Calais
without a prospect by the sea
the wait is long in Calais
but son, hold on, really, imagine once:
people see, people hear
they recognize our fate, they went ahead of us
in thoughts they are with Calais
in thoughts with Calais
hope is not taken away from us
for that we didn’t come from so far
waiting just a little more in Calais
waiting just a little more in Calais

Excerpt from Het Zesde Metaal, “Calais,” included in the album Calais, 2016. My translation.

This song is sung in West-Flemish. The Dutch version is published in Wannes Cappelle and Robin Aerts, Zeg alles af voor morgen. Het Zesde Metaal (s.l.: Het Zesde Metaal, 2017), 32.

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“it consoles me to think that with you my story might even …” He again sought some better word, but again could not find it: “… yes, that it might still float. And that’s really all it comes down to, Jacobo, to floating.”

Javier Marías, Your Face Tomorrow. Volume Three. Poison, Shadow and Farewell [2007], trans. Margaret Jull Costa [2009] (New York: New Direction Books, 2011), 531.

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Who is she? Where does she come from? Have I encountered her before? I mean one and a half millennia earlier? Does she come from a noble Greek lineage, and did her great-grandmother have an affair with people from Asia Minor, Egypt or Mesopotamia?

Closing lines of a letter drafted by André Jolles, designed to draw out Aby Warburg, and dated 23 November 1900.

As included in Ernst Gombrich, Aby Warburg. An Intellectual Biography [1970] (London: The Warburg Institute, 1986), 108.

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Now that I know that the quotation comes from Macbeth, I can’t help but realize (or perhaps remember) that also behind us, at our backs, is the person urging us on, the person who whispers in our ear, perhaps without our even seeing him … like the drop of rain that falls from the eaves after the storm, always on to the same spot so that the earth becomes softer and softer until the drop penetrates and makes a hole, perhaps a channel.

Javier Marías, A Heart So White [1992], trans. Margaret Jull Costa (New York: Vintage International, 2013), 68.

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A fifth time they dug her up years later.
A gaping hole where her heart had been ripped out
to be placed in a reliquary.
Three centuries later physicians would examine it,
would find a wound an inch and a half in length,
the edges of the wound charred
as though by a burning iron.

Gloria Anzaldúa, Borderlands / La Frontera. The New Mestiza (San Francisco: Aunt Lute Books, 1987), 159.

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And I notice two days before the show opens that Balcerowicz of Poland and Becker of the University of Chicago continue to agree: the markets are reviving, back off from regulation. Maybe they should spend less time giving each other Nobel prizes.

And yet, under our very noses, [...] a group of immigrant workers in Chicago occupy the factory that is going to fire them, demanding severance pay. Apparently they hadn’t received the Thatcherite news bulletin that “there is no alternative.”

Allan Sekula, “‘PRELIMINARY NOTES’ (Or How Not To Get a Grant From the NEA),” in Polonia and Other Fables (Chicago and Warsaw: The Renaissance Society at the University of Chicago and Zachęta National Gallery of Art, 2009), 63. Original emphasis.

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And Jesus was a sailor when he walked upon the water
And he spent a long time watching from his lonely wooden tower
And when he knew for certain only drowning men could see him
He said all men will be sailors then until the sea shall free them
But he himself was broken, long before the sky would open
Forsaken, almost human, he sank beneath your wisdom like a stone

Second stanza of Leonard Cohen’s song Suzanne, 1967.

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It’s nearly ten years since I left the shade of the coconut palms. Pounding the asphalt, my imprisoned feet recall their former liberty, the caress of warm sand, being nipped by crabs and the little thorn pricks that remind you there’s life even in the body’s forgotten extremities. I tread European ground, my feet sculpted and marked by African earth. One step after another, it’s the same movement all humans make, all over the planet. Yet I know my western walk has nothing in common with the one that took me through the alleys, over the beaches, paths and fields of my native land. People walk everywhere, but never towards the same horizon. In Africa, I followed in destiny’s wake, between chance and infinite hopefulness. In Europe, I walk down the long tunnel of efficiency that leads to well-defined goals. … So, under the grey European sky, or in unexpected sunlight, I walk on, counting my steps, each one bringing me closer to my dream. But how many kilometres, how many work-filled days and sleepless nights still separate me from that so-called success that my people … took for granted from the moment I told them I was leaving for France? I walk on, my steps weighed down by their dreams, my head filled with my own. I walk on and have no idea where I’ll end up. I don’t know which mast the flag of victory is hoisted on, nor which waters could wash away the stain of failure.

Fatou Diomé, The Belly of the Atlantic [2003], trans. Lulu Norman and Ros Schwartz (London: Serpent’s Tail, 2006), 2–3.

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In the Mainz cathedral
there had been three altar panels,
with facing fronts and reverse
sides painted, one of them
showing a blind hermit who, as he crosses
the frozen Rhine river with a boy
to guide him, is assaulted by two murderers
and beaten to death. Anno 1631 or ’32,
in the wild war of that era this panel
had been taken away and sent off to Sweden,
but by shipwreck beside many other
such pieces of art had perished
in the depths of the sea.

Description of a lost work by Matthaeus Grünewald by W.G. Sebald.

W.G. Sebald, After Nature [1988], trans. Michael Hamburger [2002] (London: Penguin, 2003), 10. Original emphasis.

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Calais, Mister President, does no longer belong to the Calaisiens, nor does it belong to the exiles; Calais belongs to the smugglers. Afghan smugglers, but also Egyptians, Pakistani, Albanese, Eritrean, Iraqi, Iranians, Vietnamese. These smugglers, Mister President, rule the town. They regulate transactions. Deliver themselves to diabolic rivalries. Collect and cash money, exact reimbursements, fabricate debts, do not shirk from sentencing — from settling accounts.

Yann Moix, Dehors (Paris: Grasset, 2018), 338. My translation.

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Something in the proliferations of immanence tends to overtake the vertical world, to reverse it, as if the hierarchy bred a particular anarchy, and the love of God, an internal atheism proper to it. Heresy is flirted with every time. And the Renaissance will tirelessly develop and extend this immanent world, which can be reconciled with transcendence only at the cost of threatening to inundate it anew.

Gilles Deleuze, “Zones of Immanence [1985],” in Two Regimes of Madness. Texts and Interviews 1975–1995 [2003], ed. David Lapoujade, trans. Ames Hodges and Mike Taormina (South Pasadena, CA: Semiotext(e), 2007), 267.

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After “breakthrough,” the British witnessed la difference.* The French section was generally swisher and better-lit, it contained a shrine to St Barbara, the patron saint of miners, a “cairn” of champagne bottles and the odd fag-end. The French tunneling machines had girls’ names: the British numbered theirs.

*Note the unconventional spelling “la difference,” an apposite amalgam of French and English.

Martin Latham, “The Secret History of the Channel Tunnel (1802–2001),” in Kent’s Strangest Tales (London: Portico, 2016), 103. Original emphasis.

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I could not help reflecting how much more pleasure it must give one to protect life than to take it away; and how much happier [the fisher] must be in catching the fish with no other intention than to feed them, than it can be with us, to first torture them with hooks and then throw them on the ground to expire in agonies.

Anon., “A Voyage to the World in the Centre of the Earth [1755],” in The Faber Book of Utopias, ed. John Carey (London: Bloomsbury, 1999), 140.

whiting¹ ►noun (pl. same) 1 a slender-bodied marinefish of the cod family, which lives in shallow European waters and is a commercially important food fish. ● Merlangius merlangus, family Gadidae.
2 [usu. with modifier] any of a number of similar
marine fishes, in particular: ● a fish of the Indo-Pacific (family Sillaginidae), including the commercially important

Sillaginoides punctatus of Australia. ● the northern kingfish of eastern North America.
– ORIGIN Middle English: from Middle Dutch wijting,
from wijt ‘white’.
whiting² ►noun [mass noun] ground chalk used for
purposes such as whitewashing and cleaning metal
plate.

Angus Stevenson, ed., Oxford Dictionary of English, 3rd ed. (Oxford: Oxford University Press, 2010), 2025. Original emphasis.

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In the aftermath of striation, the sea reimparts a kind of smooth space, occupied first by the “fleet in being,” then by the perpetual motion of the strategic submarine, which outflanks all gridding and invents a neonomadism in the service of a war machine still more disturbing than the States, which reconstitute it at the limit of their striations. The sea, then the air and the stratosphere, become smooth spaces again, but, in the strangest of reversals, it is for the purpose of controlling striated space more completely.

Deleuze, Gilles and Félix Guattari. A Thousand Plateaus. Capitalism and Schizophrenia [1980]. Translated by Brian Massumi [1987]. Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press, 2007.

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Although there are only a few of us left who played an active part in the Second World War, for us it’s insulting, an out-and-out mockery, what these pusillanimous, authoritarian fools want to do and impose on us in the name of security, that prehistoric pretext. We didn’t fight those who wanted to control each and every aspect of our lives only to see our grandchildren come along and slyly but very precisely fulfil the crazed fantasies of the very enemies we vanquished.

Javier Marías, Your Face Tomorrow. Volume One. Fever and Spear [2002], trans. Margaret Jull Costa [2005] (New York: New Direction Books, 2007), 369.

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This land is you, no, that’s a bit too much, the land allows you to introduce your ideas any time, but only you, well, not quite the only one, but you as well, and especially you, the land allows us nothing, we are nothing and it allows us nothing, even though we would like to participate, it’s better than watching, no?, so that the law also comes from us, so that the law also goes for the people, which we will be then too, but the law does not come and go, and when it goes out, it dresses up, it gets all decked out, but we may not come along, we can’t even get into the restaurant, that’s not justice, even though justice would also come to us, at least it would if it could get some time off for once, and our dream act, unfortunately, passed far away, no, it’s been shot here, the dream pass, by a soccer hero, local off-shoot of foreign parentage, he passed with flying colors, but now its [sic] no longer here, I mean the dream pass, it’s been shot, and the hero does his dream act in Munich now with his passport of our dreams, but justice, which could also come to us, if we belonged to this dream-Volk, the people who shoot dream passes and have the passports we want so much, but don’t get.

Elfriede Jelinek, Charges (The Supplicants) [2013], trans. Gitta Honegger (London: Seagull, 2016), 41–42. Original emphasis.

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Apparently

the red spots

on Jupiter are

centuries old

hurricanes

W.G. Sebald, For Years Now (London: Short Books, 2001), 18.

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But … who is to know the fate of his bones … ?

W.G. Sebald, quoting from Sir Thomas Browne’s Urn Burial (1658) in The Rings of Saturn [1995], trans. Michael Hulse [1998] (London: Vintage, 2002), 11.

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The “Insulinde” barely had taken a southerly course when an enormous, entirely unexpected ground sea rose up from the depths. It broke with thunderous violence over the ship and seemed to engulf everything. Not much of the “Insulinde,” listing some 70 degrees at least, remained above water…’ This single short sentence from a rescue report presents us with the main danger of the Dutch coast: a ground sea. A ground sea comes on howling at a place and a time that no one suspects it. Every seaman there knows that on the banks and grounds he may well expect such a deadly breaker, and he is on the alert for it, even though there is little he can do against the immense power of the water.

Piet Bakker, Storm op de kust. Reddersvolk tussen de grondzeeën (Amsterdam: Van Holkema & Warendorf, 1942), 36. My translation.

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